penny for my thots

my thots are as screwed up as my dreams. i have never had so many bad dreams in a go.. perhaps its a 25th birthday gift from the angel of dreams!!!!! i cant sleep and i cant keep awake. i sleep at odd times of the day, and no i still cant write abt what im feeling. the only way to descrbe what im feeling is:
i feel like crap!

i tried illustration, music, radio, tv, the oc, mall hopping, wierd food, and my best solution to anything aerobics. i stillllllll feel like crap! i wish id snap out of it soon....

i hope tonight is fun!!

zero % sleep

i think the reason i dont sleep is because i dont want to waste a sec of life! i stay up as much as i can.. and the oc addiction doesnt help either ;)

rainy day drowing night

why is it that sometimes when u know u did the right thing you still feel terrible abt it? i had such a wonderful day today with jess, walked around in the mall.. yes that is the one thing i can never get bored of. my evening may have been disturbed by 'the flying cockroach" thankfully frida came to the rescue for that. then the wierd conv happened.. which i dont totally understand. A blast from the past! but all i knw is that i made the right decision and i refuse to let anyone make me feel bad abt it. whether its the last so called conv i have with them!!!

the oc saves the night once again ladies and gentlemen.. :) yea i luv that show, and yet after watching it i am disturbed. hmm... i think my super ego is playing a trick with the ego who is fooling the ID!.. oh well.. i suppose if life made all the sense to us then where wud the excitment be.

i wonder if its ok for some stuff to not make sense to us....